gets tiring. When the leak fails to plug, the hallucinations of pain set in. The life boat has been ready long enough and I know that stubbornness will most likely bring pain. Since my cattle/hog spread has a big leak and my defensive bailing water attempts have kept the boat afloat with no monetary costs but I'm tired after every effort to patch the hole have failed.

The choice to abandon ship had to be made before I hurt myself due to mental exhaustion. Not giving up on spread trade destination of narrowing, there's plenty of time for that to play out. I just have to look for a new boat. There are always storms to contend with and I started this seasonal trade rather early, when this storm is over---we should see smooth seasonal sailing. A new boat will be an advantage over a storm beaten one with a bunch of patched leaks.