it's more of a case of anxiety jumping at shadows, while trying to manage my risk to keep the pain away. I got lucky in the process, that I made correct choices at the correct time. I have the cattle/hog spread back on with a short June cattle @ 153.20 and long June hog @ 72.50 with $2 of cushion before I have to deal with anxiety again. I'm sure I'll be faced with another round or two of anxiety choices before I can pass judgement that cattle have topped and hogs have bottomed. Maybe the hog report will give me a little help in easing the tension.